Suppose for after letting this thing sit for a few days, that I should actually get about putting something down into it, huh? Grant it, this is going to be a little more personal and in-depth then the blogging that I do on Myspace. It may take some time to get used to. Take this first update, for instance, it'll probably be all over the board.
Now there's an awful lot about my past that I'm more then happy to move on and forward from. The biggest one, begin the whole incident between Adam/Amy and myself. The whole situation had gotten way out of hand, on a lot of aspects. I think though, the biggest one on my end.. started with my transfer from Raw to Smackdown. It seemingly turned out to be the ultimate death of me instead of a release of tension that's built up. Big surprise there, huh? Just one of the few examples of how blind people can be to certain events. Another would happen to be the events that took place after my "Angelic Diablo" photo's were released online.
The pictures of me and the gun a few years ago (and yes, I do still have to address it since there's still people questioning that gun) ... I've already gotten enough heat over, and still in a lot of ways do. [Thank you, Nero.] It, indeed was one of many stupid attempts that I've made during that whole event. I can't explain why I had those pictures taken, or what made me actually want to pose for those pictures. It was just something that happened ... sort of spur of the moment sort of thing. One day, Kirby and Dex came over, we got a little drunk.. and obviously completely out of hand/line. If I'm not mistaken, I believe that was also the same day that the video of me running over Amy's picture was taken.
If it weren't for the actual video tape of it actually happening, I honestly wouldn't believe it had. I really, really don't have that kind.. or much hate within me. That's not who I am, and it's definitely not who my mother and father raised my brother and I to be.
...I can't erase the past though. Even as much as I'd love to.
Thankfully, things have been resolved between Amy, Adam and myself, and if I dare to say might even be back to how they were so many years ago.
But, enough about the past. Things happen, right? Just got to live and learn from it, then move on to the next scene.
I think it was my father who once told me, that the things that take place in your past, is simply different means to prepare you for the future. Lately, I've been finding more and more truth in those words. From my choice in following/admiring the aspects of wrestling to the plan of staying in North Carolina after moving out of my fathers house. Even to the issues that took place between Amy and myself. It all helped lead me to the greatest happiness that I've ever experienced, it lead to me falling in love with my best friend.
A man whom now I really can't see my life without, and honestly don't plan on doing so. In the few short months that we've been together, he's made quite the impact. Both he, and that damned twin brother of his. George, is a whole other topic for a completely different post.
Shannon, I know I've said this a few times already, but thank you. For everything.
Ah, suppose I should be wrapping this up, huh? 'sides, it's due time I head out to spend what little time I've got left of my birthday, and perhaps see what the boyfriends up to. He's been fairly quiet since I first sat down to start this thing.